i am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so in need of losing weight. be it fats, water retention, double chin, puffy cheeks and bloated tummy, i need to do it soon.and it does not help me that i am blessed with those post natal figure that just refuse to go (blame me for not having a strict confinement. serves you right, Isma! bah...)
it can get demoralising at times especially when most of the 'other' sides are all slim and it eventually lead to the aunties to probe u to lose weight as to be like the better 'others' or by making such a unjudgemental remarks which i just wish that it could be better for me just to mix around with the gentlemen. cause gentlemen don't talk about weight issue, they just talk abt current affairs, soccer, pool and others 'educated' stuff.
i meant no harm by making such remarks but i sincerely feel that i lost a part of those women 'concern issue'; such as weight lose. during my school years, my pool of friends would always compare their weight and commenting how much they want to lose weight still cause they still think that they are fat. while for me, i could not be bothered and that the only thing that you can find me doing would be going to the shop at the opposite road, using the last $1.00 i have to buy M&M. enjoying it under the shady raintree without me not hearing the bickering and complain session by my other fellow ladies.see, i don't carry a feminine trait at all
i do wonder at times if they are mentally straight cause they are slim and still wanting to be slim? maybe i am just outright jealous (who would not? i have been having this heavy baggage for the rest of my 29 years) and just wish that i too could just given a chance to have a svelte figure. but dream long long lah... hence at 21, i dont even bother to do anything except to pop phentermine, which i have managed to lost 30kg and be as low as 60kg.when that happen, it was so my zaman gemilang...(if u know what i mean, if not takpe... hehehe)
but the alarm has rang. the signs have been showing!
i would pant just for walking from one end to another and to think it was ms d who notice it eventhough i sincerely feel that i am not panting. 2ndly, for i feel hearburn regularly due to my 'michelin'- modelled tummy my ankle feel strained and tight whenever i have to walk for quite a distance on a heels.the ultimate would be when i have terrible time trying to keep up with nadrah since she is at her active stage. i am just too tired and fatigue. =(
it is not that i want to be this way but i always think of myself to be born to be fat and that it is pointless for me to try to lose weight.due that there's no other miracle that can help or motivate me to lose weight.but i think now, i start to feel otherwise. i need to lose weight to be HEALTHY. not only for myself but for nadrah and nash. so how? i know the best solution is for me would be to exercise. running, skipping or even swimming. the thought of doing of this makes me wanna p**e.
why can't they just invent chocolate kilo buster? i would be glad to eat it every
seconds minute of the day. or if it is not a kilo buster, maybe suppressent? for every chocolate u ate, u reduce ur appetite and help to increase ur metabolism? great isn't it?
so, for u who knows where to get it, do text me.
cause i am so in need of weight reduction. not to be beautiful but just to be healthy =)
but on a hindsight, i think technology is quite fair to me too
i think i look not that FAT when posing in this particular angle with some special editing.
thank god to photoshop!!! kwang kwang kwang
