move out happy feeling and welcome ms angst and frustration
rated pg16 cause there will be unintended vulgarities. pardon for me yeah =P
been a terrible week for me and the rest of the ging gang and i will just say it now or never will i hold my peace. weekend was flouted with viral, aching joints, migraine, stuffed nose and another instance, it would just get runny, sick in the brain, too tired, too strong for a medicine and worse, 3 of us are in it together. 2 days mc and work was piling, called in to ask what was wrong with me, especially on timeliness and realistic goals (how to have it since i was tasked with the 'best of interest but after knowing that she has to be there, i simply lost my inspiration' projects???!!!) pressing me for that, for this, questioning me what have i been doing, and how am i suppose to answer as i just came back from 2 days mc my brain need to recharge lay dey, give me a shrug or two here and there.me ended walking to my table feeling demoralise and morbid. what the fark!!?? and it does not help that i feel myself useless, dreaming too much and too hard that it does not get me anyway just because of that damn thing. hate myself hate it to the core for not materialising it. instead it is just me still the old me, the fat ol me. obese, pain in the ankles, slow m ovements, plus size and whatever u might call it to be. just give me a gun.... water gun can? (i am still sane)
