this week has been the 'shittiest' ever
so much for a new year where you hope that you look forward to good times (despite the economic downturn) + anticipated to begin fresh after last year lost
it churned dissipated solace whenever i think about it
finding ways to make me feel good, how to be a better person and to leap back to be the same ol' ismawati that everyone used to know in projects
i admit that i have lost my 'pojo' and faded for the last 3 months
and that a heavy consequences that i have to pay due for this coming months just to prove that i am not what she thought of me.
i dun feel the 'passion' to elaborate but the word that she has used on me is very strong indeed and i felt that it is to your own benefits and gain that without thinking or being rationale, such remarks given.
likewise, i wish to reiterate, i am just a small fry and a human being too
oh well, lesson learnt though and such revelations were unveil;
1) for all the good things/accolades achieved will just go to drain because of 1 stupid mistake
2) never be good to someone who is unable to do good for you
3) always back your doings and never procrastinate
4) if need to 'cheong' all the way
5) always follow procedure though at times it can be irrelevant
6) always back your doings (important that's why it was mentioned twice)
thanks to nashao for hearing me out and enduring my 'gembeng-ness'
not forgetting super purple nadrah
hope you will always drive those bad luck and bad people away just like the monster
