i am not dead yet.
not that i want to be dead :p
just to busy completing some papers which i did not follow up
or if i may say, i deliberately land myself in the path of endless leisure for the past months
alot of things happened last week
with car rally cum national day observance ceremony, etc... yadda yadda yadda
pics were taken but then hor, after a look at my pic, i decided not to post
i was 'gorgeously' obese and that hit me very hard, indeed
i move forward to start my diet regime
with a magic pill given by my doc to supplement my drive
so far so good except that i was dehydrated till i contracted UTI
so 2 days mc for me
HOWEVER!!!
a good news is, i have lost 3 kilos and i am keen to lose more
the thought of crossing my legs while doing work, to walk with confidence with heels, to bring back my glory days when i was 65kg, to be healthy, a chance to dress what the 'normal' lady/mother/career lady, to be able to chase nadrah w/o panting... and more?
there's too many 'to' lah... u get what i mean? not?
all of the 'to' have been daunting me and I will persevere to hit my dream weight
no, i will not be over-extreme. and i also set my target realistically and not idealistic.
doubt if i can hit the 'golden' 65kg. i would be as please as a 'cow' just by dropping 20kg
that would indeed be my target. yes, 20 kg
no, i am not shameless to declare that i am 105kg
that '105kg' will be my determination and motivation to push myself in losing the excess weight and hopefully by October (hari raya), i would have shed significantly
exercise regime will start next week since i have joined the gym and i better make every penny paid worth. no more procrastinating and excuses
it is time to work my arse and hellooo 'low card' diet as well as no coke ruling
so far so good, rice would be eaten on special occasion while for coke, i have not been drinking it or even take any sip for a week or so.
H2O was my all time fav drink and nash has been so nice by buying for me my own nalgene water bottle. it was so so so me - a red bottle that comes with a ladybug. thanks yeah. though u have not been forcing me to lose weight (though i know some hubby would force their wives to do so if they are at that kind of conditions), i have decided to act on it and i am glad & very appreciative for all the concerns showered.
so fret not
let see whether my target will be materialised in 6 months down the road
i have decided! for all target hit at each milestone, i will celebrate it by pampering myself
for instance, by end of August, if I lost another 2-3kg, think i will pamper myself with a session of traditional javanese massage.
mei wen ti, isma! ni ke yi chuo!
jia yo jia yo jia yo
