When i got married in april 2006, the popular question posed to me frm my parents, in-laws, relatives or even friend would be,'are you pregnant, yet?'. I do get scared coz a day after our wedding, i was infected with urinal infection or honeymoon cyst. It was awful as i can't stop going to the ladies & i felt as though i was laden with an anchor ard my tummy. To brave it all, i endure the pain, gripping & clawing the mr hand tight while having my virgin midnight movie @ jp. And after that ordeal, my menses flow was never regular till i question how fertile am i to conceive. 3 mths after, while doing event at west mall, i just had this hunch to buy a pregnancy kit frm guardian, albeit alot of purchases made before this. And when i saw alot, it is alot and all results were negative. Lol. Anyway, straight i went to the ladies to get it started. At that point i want to disbelief my hunch and just throw the kit without waiting. But i perserve and it paid off. Immediately i made a call to the mr telling him abt the gd news; dumbfounded and pure silence was his reactions followed a call made to my mother. Her actions was opposites of mr; simply estatic & shrieking. Soon enough, it spread across the Bak's network.
I thot after the news, i was free frm further questioning but boy was i wrong. Cause the questions posed next was focus on my daily habits. Shites, it just never end. I'm glad that during my terms, i was surrounded by lovely people who constantly provides perpetual care and concern. Never i shudders for any pantang laid to me cause i believe it is gd fpr my baby. Especially abt the choice of food that one way or another play a part on the baby gender. However during my pregnancy, i realised that i dun like rice and fish. Most of the time, i would gorged at soups, beef and must have spicy stuff. The most popular dish that i took frequently was Thaksin Beef Noodle at Clementi. Yumyum. So i was quite worried if i'm going to have a boy instead since both my sis & bro have sons for their first child. I really prayed hard in this little heart of mine that i want to have a girl though the mr keen to have a son. After 20 wks, i had a scan at a clinic. When the doctor told me it was a boy, my thoughts and feel were not as rejoice like the mr. Cause i keep insisting it is a girl; as if the baby in me mocking at me to believe it's a boy. Feeling dissatisfied with the result, i proceed for another scan at nuh at 28 weeks. I was in deep thought, keep asking my inner self abt the baby gender. As i lay on the examination bed with my tummy loaded with gel, i cant help but to convince myself that it is a girl. The doctor in unfriendly. Just as the feeling of dismay crept on, she happily told me it was a girl. If i was not tied down with gel or being half naked, i knew that i could have jolted of the bed and scream hard. Frm that day onwards, i never look back. All more i became obsessive with girly stuff especially pink although it was passe. Hee hee. And did i tell u that for at least, once a day, i would drink soya bean. Maybe that explains madrah fairness? Genetically-caused it can be since i too used to be fair but darken due to npcc. Bah!
Moving on, it was a great pleasure to have a girl. Comparatively, girls have more fun than boys. Lol. I'm sure that i can play make up, beautify her with all the cutest hair accessories, put on the most girly costumes during make believe time, play dollhouse with her or even train her different picture pose just like other famous babies. But alas, my shining gold coins is not i expected her to be. She would scream & take off all the hair accessories that i want to put for her. Chase her ard the house just so that i can tie her hair. Even the 100++ can-can skirt that i bought for her gone to waste and left rotten in the wardrobe. For the dollhouse that i want to buy was straight rejection compare to power rangers that got her kudos for. Any toys that i want to buy for her would just be 'tak nak'. Good for my pockets i guess?
Despite it all, i know that her femininity will come to light. Cause today, she joined me while i prepare my gaudy face. She looks pro (i feel) on handling the brush while gazing at the mirror.
Till she felt the mirror needs some colour too.
She look up and seeking an approving nod from me sfter she has done with it. maybe in her thoughts would be,'I would want to think that i'm into my femininity now and mama but dun get mad if i break all your lipsticks.'
Like finally! Now make up and next wld be hair accessories. Maybe i too need to wear it so that she'll follow in pursuit??? so where is the pompous hairband. i need to get it going for nadrah. =p
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